Excuse my absence. I have been head over heels lost in such a whirlwind of joy.
My Marine, my oak, my love returned home safely.
In the land of social media as it’s the month of November and Thanksgiving I am seeing the constant updates of things people are thankful for, and I feel a little off I haven’t participated. Although it is a core of who I am to take time to give thanks. I really think if there’s any aspect of my life I could expand on, giving thanks and being appreciative isn’t one I could ever get tired of adding too.
I am so blessed. Here I sit, warm drinking Costa Rica coffee made in my Keurig my Sparrow gave me. I am comfortable, I only work a part day today. I took most of yesterday off to clean and catch up on errands. My house is, ideally really close to how I want it. Although I could use some of my DG sister’s decor lessons and ability to turn everything into fabulous it is home.
I can’t explain the feeling of living in a home you own. Well my Marine owns it. But it is as much mine as his. And that feeling is phenomenal too. To have a partner, who is legally just a boyfriend and under no obligation to do anything for you take the burden of supporting you to help you find a job that brings you joy and fulfillment. To whisk you away on surprise foreign trips. To take you home to family. To share his friends, his family, and his work and social life in every aspect with you. This home isn’t just a California beach condo, it isn’t just a love shack, it isn’t a money sink hole (well maybe a little). But it is a home like I haven’t felt since I lived with my parents. A place of good and bad, but a place of unconditional love, grounding, and family.
I am first and foremost thankful for my faith. Recently my Marine and I have gotten in the maybe juvenile but I believe wholesome habit of praying at least 4 times a day, before every meal and before bed. And yes we trade on who is doing it. But I believe with practice comes perfect and more prayer seems to equate a closer walk with God, more communication, more love, and for us it seems to be working well.
I am so thankful for my family in every corner from my parents as my relationship with my mother in my mid twenties has blossomed from the turbulence of my teens to a connection of a best friend who always has amazing advice in every aspect and I don’t resent her for it even a little. To my rock with my father who has begun to for the first time ever connect with a man in my life in my Marine. I think they talk as often if not more than I do and I couldn’t be happier about it.
I am thankful for my non blood family from my Marine and his family – who make me the happiest girl in the world. Make me feel like family and welcome me to their homes. To my first running buddy in the world who maintains a long distance friendship with me – cheers my Barbie to over a decade of running and friendship and beer. To my sunflower who flexes right now under the wind, yet never fails to bring joy into the life of everyone that sees her. I have new friends and old. Friends that are maybe not blood but they are family. From my DG, to my nurse, to my sunflower and to the many more… I am thankful for you all.
I am excited about my new job, just currently praying it develops the way I want it to…
So much has been given to me. So much unexpected and glorious. From positive turns in my health, to better than imagined opportunities in our home, to dream vacations being throw in front of me. My life is a whirlwind right now one of joy.
I have seen so much, good and bad in a short life. And I write this note of thanksgiving pre birthday because I feel that I have been granted with more than people twice my age. My only hope is that I can bring the joy and happiness back to those who give me so much. .